Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Don't pray that prayer... unless you want it

so ... i know its been a while but I"M BACK!!

So some of you have seen my facebook status about this same topic and i just wanted to expand and share a piece of my life with you guys.

I have been listening to several sermons via podcast from The RAMP , a ministry of Karen Wheaton Ministries in Hamilton, AL. Damon Thompson preaches there on most sunday nights.

He has been preaching a series on the grace to live simply... I highly recommend these podcasts to anyone who is truly seeking God.

In this sermon series he touches on a subject that he has talked about alot in the past. He says that no new believer should be allowed to ask God to make them like his son for at least 10 years . they do not know what they are asking for.

 They know they see the end product and want to be that... but don't realize what is included in that process. When they begin to feel the cutting and removal of their selfish human nature and replacing it with christ it hurts. It hurts deep. When you come to a place where the only one you can count on is him, even excluding yourself, it tears you up. When you feel out of place everywhere but on your knees it is more humbling that anything in the world. When people get to this place they ask God "Why? Why me? Why now? Why does this have to happen?" and they often are too busy praying why and complaining about their situation to hear him whisper "because you asked for it, my beloved, you wanted to be like my son"
This is where people tend to stop seeking this goal, they think they can't handle it, and they can't, no one can, no one survives this and comes out the same person. They come out looking, smelling, and glowing like Christ.
I know this. I know those pains too well. I am right there in the middle of it.
When I Got back to starkville I was at a place with him where i didn't feel comfortable anywhere but on my face crying out to Him. I was holding tears back for a solid week and one wednesday night at Carla and Tim's I just couldn't hold it anymore. God was moving in me. I know that my pain was great and i know he knew that. I know that he said "you can stop this at any time... i will still love you but you can stop here. OR you can keep going and I will use you in a way you will Never be able to imagine... " And at that point... I knew I wanted to be that great woman that he has a Big plan for in the future... if only i could get there. So i gave it up again... and the peace that filled me the next two or so days was overwhelming. and amazing... now everytime something seems to begin to hurt in the pruning process i go back to these truths.... I asked for this, God will complete this good work in me, and I will come out looking like Christ at the end of it.
What could be better??


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